somewhere over the rainbow

Just realized it has been some time I never blog about my recent life. well, too much of changes over the passed one year, but to me it is a good thing. one thing that I proud for myself is I live more happy now.
"when you can put down the passed, you only can move forward." which I had experienced it, although the process is not easy, tough and persistence are needed. but most importantly is know what I want in life. either continue with no ending or cut it off and move forward for a new life. Had spend enough to struggle for a uncertain relationship that bring me to no where.
I believe there is always passers-by in one's person life, and they are not going to spend the rest of life with you. perhaps they are just can become friend.
sometimes we just holding too much on the passed. when things change, people change, means it is the time to wake up. what actually needed just courage, not to fear of losing someone in life, because there will be someone better waiting out there.
god is always fair, when he had closed your door, he will open the window for you.
family & best friends supports definitely are part of reason where my courage come from. Thanks for always be my side when I need your shoulder, your hugs. I m blessed that those who still loving me no matter what, when or where.
Tonight, accidentally get to know this song, which I'm listening now.. "somewhere over the rainbow" and found it romantic as when thinking of how big is the world and two people think of each other. hah. sounds stupid but I believe it could be happen :) off to bed soon. good night and have a good day tomorrow. Cheers~ ^.*

好久不见

今天突然有感而发想用华语来写.最近听了一首很很触动内心的歌《好久不见》 杨永聪因为这首歌而一炮而红。
的确，比较之下，听了很多次陈奕迅长的真的没那么感人
或许是杨永聪那把沙哑的嗓子让人听出沧桑的感觉
里头的歌词 很生活化
想必发生在很多人身上吧
有多少个人会相遇回之前相爱过的人呢
内心一定很挣扎
因为担心对方会讨厌或生气着自己
是想多了吗
还是其实是担心对方把自己给忘了呢
觉得自己只不过单方面在傻想而已
但那个词的意思 是即使再怎么样 两个人也回不到从前
只能说一句 好久不见
心一下就纠结了起来
回不到从前的两个人
见面又怎样
只会让彼此联想起不愉快的回忆
当然除非还相爱见到对方才会一起一些甜甜的回忆
一旦一方心已逝去
见面只能淡然一笑 勉强的问候吧

Australia Trip- Part 2 ^^

Apart from the city, i been to few travel points which are worth to get yourself there at least once in a life time :) Here come to Grampian~ which is far away from the city. definitely, i was mesmerized by the awesome view..it's surrounded by mountains and rocks, and i was just so tiny when standing on the top of view.. suddenly, the first thinking pop up in my mind " The world is super big~ and there is a lot more to explore, and a lot of stuffs are waiting for me to be complete, it is just a beginning :)
The breathtaking view from Grampian & Grand canyon.

The Grand canyon, Australia.

Great Ocean Road~ due to weather super cold and a bit cloudy on that day, cannot take a sun shining photo..Aiks..

twele apostle - one of the great historical view

A visit to wild life; me, feeding the only white kangaroo, it's so clean and beautiful.

camwhore with coala bear! my first hug, it's fur super thick and so smooth to touch. cute dao ^@^ worth for money..LOL (hugs fee 18 AUD ; not included with entrance fee)so expensive for one hug!

At night, we went to waterfront and i was so luckily enough, because there are fireworks on that particular night. i was stunning with the perfect romance environment! yuhooo~~

here we go~ fish market, but not only selling fish here, a lot of other seafood are available as well.

besides that, there are also food stalls with mostly western food. we had ordered fish fillet with fries, fresh oyster and unagi as our breakfst!

This is my fist time having breakfast under hot sun! but seems like their people very much enjoy! ~.~

The following schedule in details i think i have forgotten,LOL. but there is one awesome experience i ever had which still fresh in my mind.haha..guess what？？

yeah~ sand boarding at port stephen ^^

The sunlight is super hot, but luckily the wind is cold and yet the sand.

The sand here very soft and smooth, if i did bring small bottle will surely take some back as souvenirs! hehe
Last day! had visited to some other tourist places, unluckily i cnt really remember the name ~,~ just photo to tell the story..

Last breakfast in australia~ this is very big satisfaction!

p/s : before end my journey,there are some special and sweet moment to share here---> one of it is the damn delicious macaroon!heard that this is the most famous macaroon shop!definitely,it's super yummy and the taste just unforgettable. but it's very expensive too! 3AUD per pc! means that is equal to about RM10/pc ! wowwww~

tempting macaroon :p a must try snack~

another unforgettable moment is the ballet dance in opera house~ no doubt it's a great experience for me! i bet i will come back again for more show ;D

One of the performance are all dancers with naked body, i think for Asian not everyone can accept, but for them it is such an artistic performance! salute!

is too bad that no clear photo to show because there is no photo snapping allow, so i took secretly without flash~haha
Here end my journey~ did enjoy and have a lot fun here! it's so memorable and definitely i will come back again~~~~~ bye Australia~ c u next round ~,~

Australia Trip -- part 1 ~.~

tonight, i just finally free myself at home, listening song and surfing for internet, suddenly think of my blog! ouch~ i cant remember my last post is since how long already! sigh~ always wanted to blog about Australia trip on April but just let my laziness drag until today..okay,i will make it short & clear~ maybe those little incidents me myself also can't remember clearly. haha.. here start the journey! i wanted to go since long long time ago, and finally i make it! i make myself there~ the feeling just...such...yesss!, i make it! and no doubt this is the first time i travel to such a beautiful country. one things that i fall in love to that country is the weather, the temperature lowest is 10 celsius and highest also 19 degree celsius; can say that it's cooling for my whole journey. the first day i arrive melbourne. it's 530am if i not mistaken. my first breakfast just settle in mcD. The meal cost me ard 10AUD! wow~ so expensive McD i ever had! LOL

After have meet up friend and she bring me and another close buddy to have a walk in the city. thanks for being the tour guide :)

street performance is very common in melbourne, and the singer usually good looking as well because usually they need to go through audition before they can get perform :)

i love their building so much~

After that we just have our chinese dim sum as lunch, the most famous dim sum restaurant in melbourne! but unluckily, it's not nice for me and still feel that Malaysia dim sum nicer. LOL. in order to compensate the unsatisfied meal, we went for dessert. and this really cheers me~ yay!

Mocha @ Brunetti~

flourless dark chocolate cake (forgot it's real name)

we walk around the city~ here are some photos :D

the weather just nice to be seated open air with a cup of coffee or tea >,<

special cafe with chairs hanging on the top

The next day, Yarra Valley

Some cheese and chocolate cookies are selling here (it's all about organic and natural).

Due to can't resist to chocolate, i have tried one piece of the cookies, it's just melt in my mouth for the first bite!damn nice!

My lunch, Sous vide Salmon salad.

Finally come to the oldest market in melbourne~ Queen Victoria market. say hi to the sunshine yet it's still that cool!

it's not only a market with fresh vegetables and fruit,different food stalls as well,but also selling a lots of stuff, like bags, clothes,souvenirs and etc.

have tried the American dougnut that selling inside a small van!a lots of people is queuing up(i guess this will be the famous snack in the market :p)in fact it taste special with strawberry filling ~,~

wah,unconsciously is 12am now, got to sleep or else tomorrow gona be late to office.. more to come in Part 2~ stay tune =) good night & have a sweet dream~

痛。过了

Lost

我每天醒来都会告诉自己，
不可以颓废，不可以失去斗志
仿佛只能自己跟自己硬撑
终于明白 失去方向的感觉
真的那么的无助
好像可怜虫那样
让人感到怜悯
我到底还可以撑多久 :(

活着，真好

终于看了医生，有松了一点，但是还是担心，一切要等报告出来才能证实。突然觉得活着真好。没有事的时候，都没有这种感觉，人都是这样，等到失去了才学会珍惜，只是往往都来不及了。我祈祷如果我可以度过这一关，我要学会放下一些执着，而更珍惜我现在拥有的生命。一切看似很重要，当生命的尽头来临，那些重要只不过如此。到最后，什么都带不走，只剩下自己一个人。或许这就是人生吧。经历了，才懂领悟。只希望不会太迟，至少我还能用我活着的机会去体验生命。但愿我爱的人 健康快乐。

原来

如果一切可以从来
我宁愿选择
原动 不变

可惜 有些事情
不在我的控制范围内
我 什么都做不到

不完美的人生
总是要错过些什么
留下些遗憾

才算完美吗

那 我真的 懂的 很少

又哭了

我懂你
所以我看见你眼里的泪光

静静的
看你离我远去

我 站在原地
心 掉了

泪水模糊了眼睛
我爱你

回忆不见了吗

世界上有没有一种东西可以抹掉过去的记忆
要我忘了过去的回忆
除非我得了失忆症

要我潇洒
除非我变傻了
那我就不会有感情
不会懂感觉了

有可能吗？
我 还要伤心多久
我 会一直伤心下去吗

我恨我自己这么重感情
这么不潇洒
所以伤痕累累
泪水满面
你 一定笑我傻吧

心 倦了

我发现 我变得很轻易掉眼泪
过去的我掉的 都是伤心的眼泪
我 好疲倦了
是不爱了 还是不敢爱了

心灵的伤口 隐隐作痛
我相信 久了
痛 会变得麻木了
心 不再呼吸了

我 一个人
如果 只有期盼
换来的 是许多许多的失望
还有 无止境的泪水

我 但愿
有一天 我可以擦干伤心的眼泪
让我知道 在我孤单的时候
还有一个你 陪着我

excited monday~

i am super exicted now!and nervous too!because finally i take violin exam lo~wuhoo~~ i need to spend more time for practicing start from now on.yet,my resolution 2013- pass violin exam with distinction! wahaa...special thanks to my teacher,because he is the one who encourage me to take exam,and yet he have gave me big courage and confidence,his patient to me really touched me, or else i stil doubt on myn own. i keep asking: m i really can do it? can i ? he said : yes, of course u can! it's not a problem for you to pass the exam! i hope so.haha. but i know practice makes perfect. special thanks to my lovely pipi who play for my piano accompaniment..hehe, i believe we can play it perfectly.there is stil 5 more months to go~so except practice stil practice, don't talk too much here,practice right now :P gambateh,eye!

cheers saturday ;-)

People said that once heart is broken it won't back to the original anymore. i agree so much. of course it takes time for wound healing, but even though it recover, there is scar over there, obvious and u feel it painful once awhile. especially a raining night with sentimental song accompanied. it's even more painful. but i do learn one thing--look forward. since there is nothing can do to change the passed, looking forward is the only can do. m i right? after spending a lot of my precious time for reading,i gain something. Precious what you have now and live happily everyday. it sound simple and easy right? but how many of us can really do it exactly? recently, my best friend Shuang told me i always look for those thing i don't have, but ignore what i have possessed. Perhaps,she is right as we are 10 yrs best friend, she know me much well than myself. she remind me that i should precious what i have now, act i m really lucky enough if compare with others. family,friends, career, money and many more. i believe sadness won't last for so long where there are so many people around me to hold me, and love me. i told myself to be positive in everything, cheers and keep good smile. i promise, i learn to love myself more start from today :)

我不完美

爱情不是去爱一个完美的人，
而是去爱一个不完美的人。
我们都不完美，都有太多的缺点，
然而， 是爱情里所有的瑕疵，
是爱情的满目沧痍 使我心怀感激，
伸出一双震颤的手
去抚爱那个甘愿和我相依相伴的人。

我 爱的他

穿上我为你订做的皮侠
乌黑的头发 加上稍挺的鼻梁
带点帅气 也带点霸气
牵动着我的心
粗略的声音
别人说难听
我却说 我就是喜欢听
听着他为我唱歌
我感到无比的安稳
我 爱的他
温柔的眼神 体贴的呵护
我 爱的他
缓缓的亲吻 轻微的拥抱
我 爱的他
只不过是为我改造 的他
待梦醒来以后
我 爱的他
已不在

雨

我的天空 下雨了
这场雨下得好大好大
大大的雨滴
打在我的脸上

狠狠地 把我淋湿了
从头到脚底
都湿透了

这场雨 不只把我淋湿了
它告诉我 我该醒了

熟悉的陌生人

远远的望着你
熟悉但又陌生
一样的笑容
一样的神情
一样的手势
但却不再是对着我

或许对你而言
我已不存在你的世界里
曾经的深爱
曾经为爱奋不顾身
曾经为我留下的泪
曾经守候我的你
已经不存在了

百般的无奈 揪在心里
曾几何时
我 歇斯底里
泪水湿透衣角
再多的心痛
再多的心碎
只换来一句 保重

空

我，伸展双手 和双脚
闭上双眼
平躺在浪海上
任由浪波把我的身体
缓缓地
随着波浪的旋律
给冲走

泪水渗入海水里
溶合一起
已再分不清楚
是海水的咸意
还是泪水的苦涩

下一个旅程

凭空想象我就跌入在旋涡里
转呀转
转了好久好久
终于我 降落了
来到属于我的世界里

过去的过去
不过是旅途中的风景
记忆只是留在美好的
其余的留在那里

收拾情绪
想搭上专属我的火车
准备到达下一个旅程
但，火车还在等我吗？