@uyong so bi

终于说了

作词:auyong 作曲: auyong 演唱: auyong

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我終於開口對你說
把我的心讓你解剖
我在等待試驗的結果
你終於開口對我說
你的心以容納太多
我以明白沒有結果
當你訴說的時候 你一眼都沒看我
看着你背影 什麼表情都沒有做
我也不想問太多 讓答案永遠埋沒
我選擇不要想太多
(我選擇解脫)
难道我和你之间只存在友谊
难道全部都是我的错觉
应不应该放弃 还是继续下去
我的心一直犹豫

i love u more......

爱上一个人
你是会为他担心很多很多
担心它是否睡得安好
担心他是否吃得温饱
担心他工作会不会太累
想为他煮煮美食，消消一整天的疲惫
爱一个人本来就会这样
应该说是先天的本质。

曾经，我们都会问：“你爱我吗？”

有时是明知故问，纯粹想听到甜蜜的回答。
有时是知道爱已消逝，很想去挽回。

当你问这个问题，其实是很想得到对方的爱，希望他说爱你。
我们是多么渴望别人的施舍，希望他是爱你多一点的。

今天，我遇见了你。。
我不再问，我宁愿说：“我爱你！”
你有多爱我，是否像以往这么爱我，已经不重要。
我只想告诉你，此刻，我是多么的爱你。

奢侈的爱@uyongjinyoo

奢侈的爱

作词: auyong 作曲: auyong 演唱: auyong

还记得第一次遇见你
还记得我们对话的原因
还记得你说的每一句
一直都刻在我心里

慢慢的我们开始熟悉
慢慢的我们开始相信
慢慢的开始了解了你
慢慢的就在一起

我们之间 有太多纠缠不清的线
关于你的心 关于我们的情
你还是犹豫不决

我们的拥抱 也许是寂寞的需要
那都是你和我的寂寞的临时解药

给我的关怀 到底出自什么的心海
我不想一直站在这个爱情边外

(我不想放手 但不能够奢求同情的温柔
我选择成全了你为了证明我爱你)

戒不掉握你温柔的手
戒不掉温暖拥抱时候
戒不掉对你的守候
我还是戒不掉你

eYe's pretty birthdaY~~

i would lk to begin my blog with
"wahahaha..i hv celebrate my memorable and awesome bday in my life.."
thx for the gift u hv made for me..it's really make me touch..
thx for the card,the song,the jacket...
thx for the photo shooting..i damn lk it^^
thx for everythg u had done for me..
love so much :)

eYe>>> 101114

cheer~

a decision

just realise that i ord step into 7th mth for my working life..
wow...is nt that long,but not a short period oso..
cant deny that i really hv learn a lot thru tis job.
is tough for me whn start working,i never thk to work in tis field b4,
everydy need to meet different ppl,but the chatting topic are almost the same,just the ways of talking are different n
definitely the ways u treat different ppl are also different..
if u ask me whetehr happy wv the job?
i also duno how to answer..
mayb the 1st answer appear in my mind is nt..
but think deeply..i m quite satisfied wv all those so called 'benefits' frm tis job.
working time very flexible,i can arrange schedule myself..
salary quite ok,but higher abit sure better lo
commissen quite acceptable,but target too high,hard to hit:(
(but if work hard stil can hit de :0)
hm..manager n colleagues treat me very good too..
sound lk quite good rite?
but duno y i stil feel lk wan to change job
i dun lk , i really dun lk tis job, sumtime
i wil get mad on it
stress make me crazy,make me insomnia
i knw everybody need to stand for their stress,it's normal only
or shud i say every job also will hv stress,it's depend on how u going to manage it..
else the job is really hv no challenge..thn wil be another story d
if i really can thk positively,y i stil keep thking to change job??y?
wat i m nt satisfied wv?
i keep analyse the pros n cons recently..
i wan to thk carefully b4 make a decison..
cuz i dun wan myself to get regret on the decison i made
the feeling of regret is damn bad..
so,is thr any other aspect hv left to support the cons?
hm...i spend most of the tm on the road,
especially under the hot sun..
it's really feeling damn bad,sumore make me get darker skin,
i feel terribly bad of it :(
furthermore,sumtime need to entertain those fake customers
it's not my ways...i dislike such way
is nt me anymore..i wont prefer to be those kind of ppl
well, i just act whoever i m..dun care
tat's y ppl do sales,i do sales,but it's terribly tough for me :(
anyways,i wl try to learn some skills which can help me doing well in my job scope(it's a must in order to get performance,no choice :(
while at the same tm i knw wat m i doin abt,n try to balance it.
state out pros n cons,but stil cnt make any decision...
cuz i dint c any side which hv more point to support..
haiz..headache..
put aside 1st..
anyways,jst try my best whatever the challenge come to me
i wil knw wat to do n wat decision to make soon..
god bless me ~~

瞬间的永恒

当处于最脆弱的时刻
头脑往往是最清醒的
看着你，有种说不出的感觉
不懂该怎么去形容
该说是神奇吗
神奇是因为你就真真实实的在我面前
亦或是奇迹呢
奇迹是因为我和你的相遇
还是很童话呢
童话是因为没有想过的事情竟然发生了

突然的突然我很多很多的感触涌上心头。

原来幸福可以离我这么近。

也许只是帮我剥掉葡萄皮，帮我去厨房倒水,帮我关灯，
会在半夜醒来帮我盖被，又或者是当当跑腿，帮我买点我爱吃的东西。

这一切，其实并不是很难做而已，甚至我都可以自己做。
但是，当自己喜欢的男人就在身边，你会突然想懒惰一下，希望他会为你做。
不过是走几步去拿一件外套或拧关一盏灯罢了，只要开口，就有人愿意为你做，
那种感觉是不一样的。

张小娴说过：
“他不必爱我到永远，谁知到永远有多远？在我渴求的时候，此刻就是永远。
当我说：“可以帮我绑鞋带吗？”而他愿意俯下身去为我做一件这么微小的事情。
那一瞬间、便已经是永远。


女人一生中寻寻觅觅，只不过想找寻属于自己的幸福
而那幸福却可以因为一件微不足道的小事而发起。。
就那一刻，留下永恒

有你就够了

思念一个人可以是痛苦的 也可以是幸福的

可以从新让自己有着这样的感觉

我 找到我自己了

陈静双的部落格里头张爱玲的那一段让我深思

“其实对于爱情，越单纯越幸福。
一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的。
经历的太多了，会麻木。
分离多了，会习惯。
换恋人多了，会比较。
到最后，你不会再相信爱情。”


我相信我是相信爱情的。。。
因为此刻的我觉得
有你就够了

我就是想念你

想念你的味道
想念你的歌声
想念你的笑容
想念你的眼眸
想念你的温柔
想念你的体贴
想念你的拥抱

想念你想念我的每一分 每一秒
想念你说想念我是你的习惯
想念你对我说 我想你

我就是想念你

me stil me

everythg just happen in such a moment..
i hv try my best to adapt to whatever the changes

and now what i expect to happen
and what i dint expect to happen
all just happened..

gone through all these,i just realise
i hv become mature
what my fren say are true
i m growing up..
i hv totally grown up

i m not the one who go toilet oso nid fren company(wen say :p)
i m not the one who always care little things and sad for whole day
i m not the one who break up and can sad for up to 3 years
i m not the one who always see thgs on one side,the negative side
i m not the one who only care of her own feeling bt nt others

over years
times goes by
many thgs hv changes

gradually..
i hv open up my mind

i can go toilet alone (haha)
i thk positively whn difficulties come toward me
i try to care on ppl feeling everyitme
i can become strong and tough even break up(i hope)
i only care on sumthg tat worth to me
i wont let myself sad for too long(for somethg that really make me sad)
i can stand up very quickly eveytime i fall down...

i have to admit
i have changed..

but
me stil me

我的幸福

幸福洋溢在脸上。。。
我知道此刻我是真的很开心，
很快乐，很有喜悦感。。。
如果可以的话，
我甚至想停留在此刻
想贪婪的捉住属于我的幸福。。

如果时间可以停留
我希望是在这一刻

谢谢你出现在我的生命里 。。

找寻 答案

从来没有想过一切的一切
就这么的发生了。。。
我的思绪就这样被捣乱了。。
我，无法呼吸
我，无法入眠
我，翻来覆去的
在高空中盘旋。。
似乎在寻找一些答案
我也不知道问题所在的答案。。

我让你来告诉我，
我让你来解答我，
一切的一切。。。

结局了吗

当初你以为我不喜欢你
我以为你不在乎我
我们就这样 织不出属于我们的爱情

久违的邂逅
我们的相遇
只恨太晚吗？

我的心情 揪起来一团
我解不开 当日的情感
看着你走远 苦涩的笑容
我只能沉默
我还可以怎么了
你告诉我 你告诉我
你告诉我 我该怎样

失去的安全感

突然很有失落感。
突然很想念喜乐之家的小朋友
突然很想回去探望他们
突然很想念他们那天真无邪的笑容
突然他们那单纯的念头感化我了
好像回到那最原始的我。。。

发自内心的喜悦，是最珍贵的
但是往往环境会让一个人逐渐失去自我
那原本单纯无邪的那个被隐藏了
无声的哭泣 在哀悼 失去的安全感

乱糟糟的心情

复杂的心情
乱糟了的心跳频率
我失去了导航的方向
似漂浮在汪洋中的小船
一上一下的
失去了理智的能力
我该捉紧驾驶盘的
但我并没有
掌控的能力似乎不在我的范围内

我以为找个理由説服自己
心里会好过一点
烦恼会少一点

原来只会更加逃不过
逃不过那紊乱如麻的心
它 还是赤裸裸的
摊在我面前
我 还是回到原点
复杂的心
还是复杂

like ^^ me :p

nice? GUESS RM399 shoud i buy? hehe XD






*eYe*

new . eYe

never expect to perm my hair.><

cuz i really hate curly hair, too aunty d...=.=''

sumore cost me RM228!!!

but fortunately also get unexpected result too ^^

some of my fren said i m suit to this style..hao cai..

bt i thk i will never dare to perm my hair anymore!!!

it's so take time to set my hair..n get dry also :0

no choice...

try to accept curly hair AGAIN...haiz...:

脆弱@非生物

原来车子是最脆弱的非生物。。。

我的宝贝车子再一次的撞击。。。足以让它粉身碎骨。。。

我为它在这一天写下最辉煌的一页。。

男人难处

女人最爱问男人的一句话是：
“你爱我吗？”
你说男人该怎么回答你才好呢？

男人是最为难了
因为如果回答 “是”
女人就会说：
“什么？你怎么想都不想就说是。。
你到底是不是真的爱我的。。？”

但如果男人说：
“erm.....erm.....
erm.....我当然爱你咯”
女人就会说：
“爱不爱我都要想这么久，
你是不是不爱我？”

男人这时：
“。。。。。。”
只好沉默无奈



你说男人为难吗？

瞬间的。被触动

凌晨一点三十分
外面窗口下着细细小雨
些许感冒的我
再配上一首牵动着我内心情感的歌
“心连心”。。
我的心跳频率 复杂了
我可不可以改成 “心。连。心。”
他的心 和 我的心。。连接了

最近联络回了一个很久很久没有聊天了的网友
他很有才华
很会做歌
他的歌被astro录取了
还上电视
真的很欣赏他
跟他也蛮投契的
msn就会想到跟他聊天

他的歌让我回忆过往的点点滴滴
因为在另一方的他也很会做歌
他做过给我的歌
我还记得
收藏的是回忆而已
因为过去是不再真实的
摸不着 看不透
只是淡淡的背影会一瞬间的隐现
我宁愿相信 是虚幻
这样我才不会让自己难受

突然我发现
我曾经深爱的那个他
是在我记忆中的他
现在的他
原来我并不能接受了
应该说
我不爱现在的他了
是心灵有距离了

我清楚明白
如果让我再次选择
我内心深处
已知道了答案

an aCCideNT ==

i thk i really have a bad luck recently....
duno y everythg come to me is nt tat smooth as i expect...
damn no mood on it...
company no stock situation, customers complaint,
company took over by others....
following by my accident...
u c...tat's so many bad thg going to happen arond me..
is tat all tis challenges send frm god?
he wan to train me in order to get use to facing all those
unexpected situationS??
i duno...
i just hope everythg will goes by..
and rainbow will appear in front of me very soon.


come bac frm my accident story...
it's just hapen within a second,i even dun hv times to respond to it
it just..HAPPEN
all is because of the fault of the car beside me,
he drove damn close to me and almost going to hit my side window
suddenly i just heard" crackz.....buhss""
my god! i straight away turn to side window n see wat's is happening..
just in tat second,"bang" my whole body hv push to the front..
i had hit to HONDA ACCORD bac side!!!!
The honda accord thn hit to the car infront..
oh my god oh my god..!!! i shout continuously..
my heart beat rate INCREASE so much
the 1st thg in my mind is 'how much do i need to pay for the damage???"
must be a damn huge amount rite?i nt dare to imagine tat...
i hv no idea ..i duno wat to do
at that moment i just knw to call nyak mun keat.
four car of us just stop in the middle of SPRINT highway
v hv block the way totally
v decide to exchange name card with each other
and meet in another place to avoid blockage
i duno wat do i do at the moment
my hand n leg are energyless
my car air-cond turn off d..n heard those weird sound
come frm my engine part
i even nt dare to drive it,scare will break suddenly
sumore it's damn hot especially drive under hot sun
as my air-cond cnt func anymore..

the HONDA accord owner call me up,
told me the repair fees for her car
will be up to RM1000.. WOW...my wallet is bleeding..huh~
really blank in mind...cuz mine 1 nt yet calculate in..i cnt imagine tat
after discuss with Mr Nyak..i decide to claim INSURRANCE...
i call bac the gal to meet at around 3pm
i plan to make polis report together with her
after report n took pic for both damage car,
i m goin to settle my car
bt unluckily my car couldn't fight for me anymore,
it finally stop on the road
shit..i called for AAM,they just told me dint drag for accident's car
tis free service cover frm my comp,
otherwise i need to pay myself
it's cost RM300 !!!
shittttt..i m so kkek a....
i tot my car repair is easier to claim frm insurrance
bt the worker told me
if wan to claim the repair fees must up to RM1500
otherwise i need to pay myself
u c..how realistic tis world.. sad
eventually,mrNYAK help me pay all the repair fees
cuz he so sayang my car..
if nt those ppl will purposely break my car
in order make the repair fees to become RM1500
mr NYAK so hurt to hear tat so he want to pay for it rather than
let ppl to break my car...

tis is how my accident goes on..
i will never ever forget tis day as my NEW born car has gt injured T.T

>>laptop IDIOT??!!!

damm excited!!!!finally i have my OWN laptop that
i used my OWN money to bought it!
very hapy and feel satisfied...
brought it back home with full of excitement....
while reach home i only realize that
i even duno how to manage my laptop...
i totally have no idea on it..oh my god! what a big joke..
.hahaha.....
is true as what my fren said "welcome bac to 2010!!!!"
i can imagine the picture that they have shout for me n
clap for my return..wuhu~
at that moment i really hv to admit that i m 'pc idiot' =.=''
really shame for it...
i even duno how to start to use my laptop,
can u just imagine how do my feel?
i m so helpless,so excited to own my laptop finally but
i couldn't understand 'it' absolutely
huh~i just huh~i just can huh~
laptop a laptop..u r tooo advanced ord...huh~
is the 4th day ord...i couldnt use any func frm my laptop,
cnt msn,cnt pps,cnt microsoft word..
i'm getting crazy on it!!!
no,no,it couldnt be solve as long as i dint get a helping hand,
so tmr i wil send it to CLINIC ...cnt drag anymore,
man,it's serious CASE...
hope after'operation'everythg will be all right n
all the func will recover as well....
nt recover la...best word to say is DISCOVER...hahaha
god bless 'it'....

搬家记

刚刚家了，好开心，也好累，搬家真得很累。。昨天很早就收工了。。嘻嘻
然后就跑去IKEA showroom参考一下怎么设计设计我的房间，结果买了桌子啦，椅子啦，

假花啦。。等等的真的搬到我气喘了。。还好又绕文杰帮我拆桌子和椅子，
不然我真的休想睡觉了。。真是幸苦他了：）

买了该买的，隔天再去买了不怎么该买的（但也都满需要咯）嘻嘻。。就像是相框啦，礼物纸啦，玻璃瓶啦。。等等的。。噢，可别看小这些散三不拉卡的东西哦。。我怎花了五十多快叻！但都是值得的，才可以设计我自己格调的房子：）
就这样我整个礼拜都牺牲给了我的房子。。好累好累。。
值得的是放工回到家终于有种解脱的感觉了。。哗！
舒服！舒服！

懂得。舍弃

最近很多东西烦，工作不顺利很烦，找到地方住了要搬了又要烦，烦没时间整理东西（我的东西的确是太多了），饶文杰每次讲我喜欢收垃圾。。一开始我还一直反驳的，但是翻回看看，我并不是收垃圾啦，嘻嘻。。。我只不过是念旧而已。。（自辩）
以前在下乡团当顾问的时候，就会收到很多心意卡啊，小礼物啊，等等的。。
虽然这些都是不等用的东西，但我却这么珍惜他们的心思，虽然收藏它们是蛮占据空间的。。
结果最后它们的寿命也被陈巾柔结束掉了。。。他说这些都是垃圾，早就该丢啦。。
“你啊，真是垃圾婆来”
“.....”我愣住了半载。。。
唉，他这个朋友真是没话说了，虽然我的念旧被丢了，
但我却被他的举动深深的感动，因为他是真心为我好的。。
是的，我真的很爱收东西，只要是接过手的礼物也好，
我都回收藏张起来，舍不得丢掉。
所以就会常常爱回想以前的事情，每次看到一样事物，
就会很轻易的勾回去一幕幕的回忆。。
久久在我脑海盘旋，散播不去。。
以前很喜欢这样子，但是现在反而很讨厌了
我不想让自己一直活在过去，很痛苦，很折磨自己
现在我学会该怎么去爱自己多一点，活得实在一点
“活在当下” 我一直这么告诉我自己

moody day~

wat a shit day!
my car's radio had been stolen last night!
when i just notice it today's morning,i was so shock about tis...
how come the thief get into my car without broke my window??
and then how come he can lock my car before he leave?
nowadays, those thief are sooo sooo clever...
it's unpredictable..their skill are even advanced until v totally cnt imagine tat..
i m feeling sad as i need to pay for it to get a new one..
but i also feel lucky as the thief do not act cruel and drive off my car away..
haiz...actually i also quite pity for that thief,he must sure be very poor and even poor in education not only money...
if he is not fall in such condition,then he will not act like this..i murmured in myself.
i should forgive him...he is much more pity than me..
i am able to earn bac the money but i have no idea about'him'..
wat's a pity!